Canot c u everynite = loneliness every nite

Canot with u everyday = no soul in me..

Cant believe that u r moving away n less appearance in my life..

3 weeks is like 3 months i din get 2 c u.. missing u alot..

cant believe that 2mrw u r going bc 2 ur mum hs.. n i cant hang out wif u 4 1 week..

to me is like 1 month.. u r my vaccine to my missing virus.. m=counting down the date of seeing u makes me nervous.. bt y u say that if monday no class u wont b coming to school.. don u wish 2 c me alot? my heart juz sank when u say tat..

Mayb u r use to it tat im not by ur side anymore.. u got no probs that need me thr to heal u anymore.. tats y u r pushing me away.. giving me reasons of spending more time wif frens.. u r now more important to me.. it hurts whenever u r pushing me away don wan me to join u hanging out wif ur frens.. last time u r delight 2 have me by ur side n at the same time can hang out wif frens.. bt now u wan me less exist when hanging out wif ur frens.. izit just me or izit u 2..

y cant things get better.. its worst enough already tat u nid 2 move out from hostel, n den u told u r going to move to gk next month.. n u pushing me away for time reason..now.. u r moving bc 2 ur mum house.. i cant get 2 c u at all.. im already guilt that for all this trouble.. i cant get 2 b by ur side to talk wif u n heal u ..

mayb my job as ur angel is done.. n u don need me anymore n its time 4 me to leave u.. bt i don wanna leave u.. my love 2 u has grow deeper that i thought it would be.. bt ur love 2 me mayb has bcom shallow n shallower.. y is this happening.. r we not meant 2 be 2gether?? i tot we were on the day our love grew stronger.. bt now... im really speechless to say..

my heart juz hurts thinking of cant spending more time wif u n now u dun allow me 2 samore..

my heart juz sank like the titanic deep in the ocean like my heart deep in the blood whr it cant be seen no more..

my heart has once broken so many times n so many cracks n scars.. big ones.. small ones.. n even severe.. n i stick it bc although it is not perfect.. with plasters n tapes all over it.. bt i guess it wil be throw to the floor to b break again.. n tis time i dun guarantee that i would b able to fix it bac again.. mayb i will give up n dun wan to fix it again n again..

i left a great guy that i ever noe although its not perfect in physical bt perfect in mentally.. i left him for u.. bt u.. haih.. i tot u wil prove 2 me tat my decision is right 4 choosing u .. i juz hate guys tat give up esily juz bcoz tat they cant make it without fixing it.. cowards..

i rmb tat i once write 'wherever we go even though we are not in the same place, our heart stil remains together, under the same sky, under the same moon, we always be togther.. I LOVE U'

y cant u juz contact or find a way to let me noe dat if ur hp credit low..

leaving me worry n waiting 4 ur msg all day long..

recently don noe wat u r doing.. ask u question say me fan...

i say sorry im so fan 2 u, u say dat u din say dat..

i noe u r stress bout things happen lately.. i don blame u bt im stil hurt of wat u have say..

u say i've changed always ask u silly question bt the 1 who changed is u..

im stil da same.. last time even though i ask silly question u wil stil ans me patiently bt now as if im not in ur heart anymore..

on msn u say doing stuff, busy.. ask u wat u busy of u say y i have 2 noe n im so fan..

if u really love me u wil ans me.. u're not like u anymore eversince u move out from hostel..

every nite juz thinking bout u makes me cry.. when i cry u say y i always have 2 cry.. helo!! im a girl.. i dun cry wat u wan me 2 do?.. i punch some things u say i rough.. make me so stress too..

on dat day u express u feeling i juz tahan if not we will end up argueing n more frustrated..

lately u din even wan tell me wat u doing liao.. don wan me 2 mix wif ur frens liao.. last time u wasnt like dat.. u very happy if i mix wif u n frens..

is juz like as if u dun wan me 2 b in ur life so much...

the sentence u say of 'last time hoiday i miss u so much bt now i dun feel wan call u' really hurts me alot.. eventhough i told u tat i din blame bcoz u r stress..

bt y cant u let me b by ur side when u r in trouble n stress.. last time im always thr when u 're in trouble.. do u remember tat..

i noe tat u r very into the american mind.. open minded.. to u fren hug is juz a fren hug.. bt helo!! u're not in america.. is not u dat i worry of.. is the person u're hugging im worry of.. especially if it is a girl.. to u is juz a fren hug bt to her it is not.. they r typical chinese!! they wil misunderstand y tis guy wil hug me.. izit he like me? c u so leng chai wil make them fall in love 2 u.. u say it wont happen bt when it really happen how r u gonna solve it hah? if u too care about tat person they wil misunderstood ur niat.. ya last time when we were frens we did hug bcoz im sad of losting my ic n money.. n tats how i fell in love 2 u.. u cal me 2 trust yes i wil trust u bt who noes bout future n the consequences of ur act.. when it did happen tat time u wil dump me juz like wat da 'somebody' did 2 me.. bcoz u have no choice bt 2 avoid it.. frens stil have border okey.. i noe da americans they got fren hug n fren kiss n cheek bt if da person u hugging is american den i don mind.. bt u're in malaysia.. if u kiss their cheek whoah!! they sure lagi misunderstood la..

y cant u jaga my feeling too.. always say to ur fren got gf so gud u wan ma? when i massage 4 u u say to ur fren wan her (me) massage 4 u also ma? helo!! im not sui pian massage 4 ppl k.. u tot i work 4 u ah.. i help u massage bcoz u r my boyfriend!!

u promise me dat u wont hurt me... last time u keep mentioning bout da girls who passed by say their body so nice wish tat im like them.. i oso wan la!! i noe im like a galah no front n no bac.. bt im trying to get tat body too.. n now u even concern bout a girl in front of me.. search girl's phone number in front me.. izit u purposely bring up my anger? when im upset d den u say i so kecil hati n scold me..

last time is me who scold u not u scold me.. bcoz i feel guilty n not nice always scold u dats y i changed bt u take advantage of it n scold me in return wif hurtfully way.. n thr is a difference.. i scold u 4 ur gud bt u scold me bcoz of all blame me.. im fergile too..

u msg me dat u wil always b thr 4 me bt i msg u u din reply me.. everything i wan say or ask like wat r u doing also nid to rethink n canot ask.. social n talks starts from questions n answers.. i feel so suffer when i canot ask u anything.. when i wan share my thoughts or my feelings i also scare tat u wil say i very fan.. n all i can do is juz keep in me n write at blog..

i feel so suffocate when thinking of u when its not u dat i noe...

dat day when u go cut ur hair.. i dun wan ask u who u go wif bcoz i scare after i heard sure wil hurt me.. n ya u did go wif a girl bt i don noe whether if thr is someone else.. dats y i don wan mention bout it if i did u sure scold me n say dat im so conservative n not open minded..

i juz hope dat what u say bout only me in ur heart wil always only me n nobody else.. eventhough other girls crush on u bt only me inside ur heart.. den i wil have no doubts n curiousity n jealousy.. all i can do is forgive n forget.. n i keep telling myself over n over again.. juz to calm my idiot feeling..

im wondering one day if im gone from ur life suddenly wil u feel deeply sad n miss me?